Its as though I could just feel her sucking the energy out of me as she talked. She is a psychological vampire. She gets off on this.

I drove home at the end of the day, nearly falling asleep at the wheel. Collapsed on the bed: What the fuck just happened...I have lost....

Whats worse, she has made me realize that I am what I hate the most.

:~:

I was blindsided, plain and simple. She spent time talking with The Powers That Be and they, apparently, agreed with her (contrary to their attitude towards me only a week ago). So she comes prepared. With a speech. With the force of her friends behind her.

Only a week ago she says to me, "We need to just drop this until we get everything done. Until, like, January because we are to busy now to be fighting over this."

"Fine," I tell her, "but I'm not going to forget. Its something that we will need to discuss in the future."

And then today, she comes to me. With a decision.

:~:

"She scares me!!!" (And for some reason this does not bother me.)

:~:

I think I fancy myself not unlike Cassandra--madness is perhaps sanity. The ones who Know are forever cursed to not be believed.