26 Feb: The problem lies in that fact that when i Feel so much I am less free to experience the world as it exists outside my manic emotion-filled head.

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05 Mar: The highs are so beautiful and intense but the problem therein lies in the lows which are just as violent. Equilibrium means less and less and is harder to find amidst the rushing noise.

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12 Mar: These days there is a startling and sharply contrasting mix of bleak nihilism and unblemished optimism.

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"a garden of lilacs under a sheet of ice was how he described it..."

I know the pieces fit, because I watched them fall apart; I have the time and space to put them together again. New and better things are coming. Expect it.