Well, I knew it was coming but this week I had to go to the college open house at the local high school and get hit right in the face with the reality of the whole thing. Now next month she will start taking an SAT prep course and will be taking her PSAT, before long it will be the SAT’s the college applications, scholarship applications and so forth. I really hope that she is at least able to get a partial scholarship for college because she is really a great student and I really dread taking out too many loans to put her through school. Don’t get me wrong, I will do whatever it takes, but still I know that college can be rather costly and with the way this child spends money, I assure you that the college that she decides she wants to go to will not be cheap. If anything, if there is a ranking of schools, just based on cost in the US she would definitely pick right off the top of the list. Now she originally was talking about going away to school, but somewhere in the same state, but lately now she is talking about just up and going to school in California and her answer to me is that she has always wanted to see it. I told her she should probably go and see the state first before she just decides to up and move there without so much as knowing anyone. She agreed, but I am not really sure what she will do. I am however pretty sure that once she hits college age she is out, that is just who she is and what she wants right now, and I am not really sure that I am ready to make the transition from parent looking over shoulder to parent of adult child, so I think I may have to do some real soul searching to make it through this one. I don’t think it matters too much what she decides to do, I am sure that whatever it is she will succeed. I secretly am hoping that she at least stays within a few hours so I can see her more often, but I wouldn’t dare discourage her from living her life, ultimately it is her life to live and her choices to make. I can just always be here for guidance and support, which is what a mom is for.
Posted on Tuesday, September 16, 2008 11:11 AM by Carol Ann